Waiting being paid off

yuppy yup!!! he's back already... yes it been half a day already... now then i tpye entry abt it... wel who cares.. i'm out to fren's hse jus now... n yesterday nite, i got put an entry but i jus deleted it...

@ 1.25pm, i kol his hp... n glad to hear his voice on the next line... finally that he's back... no more worry on him not in singapore... no more worry for not going to meet him.. or worst not getting to hear his voice anymore... i felt so comfortable wen hearing his voice... seems like all the worries is being push away jus like that.. urgh!! really miss his siliness n laughter... really can't wait to meet him in person... wonder how i'm going to react wen i see him... hmmm...

Strange Of Me

y i'm feeling so worried... y am i feeling so afraid... y am i feeling so unconstant...

i noe i'm supposed to be excited upon receiving any news from him... overjoy upon hearing his voice... but yet i didnt... previous days he kol thru my fren phone... its supposed to be a surprised but i got that feeling already... n moment i heard his voice, i was excited... jus couldnt believe he kol... but second after that, i jus keep quiet... sampai kene sound... haiz... dunno la eh... i keep on asking myself y... y like this siak... nape sri? nape?.... at nite i told my fren, abt wat i been thinking or felt... she said maybe bcoz i've been waiting for him too long.. been hoping too much... wel.. kind of true... but aiyoh dunno la...

been many times i felt this way... everytime i'm angry coz he didnt want to meet... den wen he want to meet up, i'll be the one perangai... even su once scold me... strange rite...

n now he'll be back in 3 days time.. n i'm here missing him... wanting him to be back soon... can't wait to see him... but yet, back of my head, i'm been thinking the possibilities... is things going to change? will he have different personality like he usually do moment he's back from holidays? am i going to be here feeling happy? if its going to change, is it going to be bad or good?... so where can i find the answer to all this question plus the leftover one in my head...

Outing with KIDS + Surprise

my kakak sedare asked me out... planning to go to expo coz there's metro sale... but unfortunately, we didnt managed to... instead we went to united sq... watched SPIDERMAN show... hehehe... it was fun.. i laughed thruout the show... jus couldnt believe that i'm watching this thingy.. den walked ard the place.. plannign with the rest on where to next...

my abg sedare leave everything to me... n yah like as if i noe everything abt singapore rite!!! asking me where's the nice place la... where's the ducktour ticket counter la... where to go next la... aiyoh like as if i'm the one who never been to all the places in singapore.. haiz...

after th SPIDERMAN show, we proceed to east coast.. yah jus to have our dinner there... at that indonasia restaurant... damn!! i forgot the name... over there, i was being bullied by my abg sedare... he still thought that i'm the girl who keep on eating when everyone is done with it.. i'm the one who finished up all the dishes... in fact i still did la... but not worst than before... eh previously, i can asked for another dishes eventhough i'm full.. so called- i'm the tong sampah... hehehe... while resting for the food to digest... i still couldnt decide on having the alvocado juice or not... end up no... coz i'm to full.. n nwae my abg sedare is the one paying for all this.. hei!! this is not a special occasion...

carrying ard with my neice... eventhough i'm with high heel... damn!! i had much fun... isk!! can't stand looking at the bikinis there... nice n cheap.. haiz... if only i have enouf money with me... instead of buying bikini, i jus bought an anklet... cheapo one will do.. .jus couldnt get enouf of anklet...

next we proceed down to esplande... jus one place thats happening... coz there's WICKEDAURA BATUCADA... the brazilian band... alah the one who won in performing for the opening in Black Eyed Peas Concert... they were great... superb... tremendeous... once u watch it, u wouldnt want to move... jus want to stay n listen... n jus a coincidence, one of the member was farking cute... n yah i took pictures of him... curi2 amik la... way back i was holding hand with my 1 year old niece... jus couldnt realise that my frens was at the back... i only realise wen i saw Saiful... den Ronny n girl... den Nurdin... they asked who's child is it... i jus say it was mine.. n they believe it.. hmmm.. how stupid can they be... yah la me having kid walking with my couzins all...siao ah!!! tak dapat siul!!

inside the car, i was too tired that i almost sleep... yah adding more, listening to semtimental songs... wah while singing along, memories come back... with both of them... the recent only being flashback wen we drive pass the tanjong pagar area.. yah how much i miss him... but nevermind... cant help much...

the surprise part... jus wondering wat occasion is it today that almost all my aunties n uncles come to my house... yah totally one hell of an feast... the food served was wow... spagetti... sup tulang merah... bubur kacang... durian... damn!!! full siak... i managed to eat the sup tulang.. coz thats wat i've been craving for all this while... den yah start again with the nursery session in the rooms... where all those toddles being accompanied by their mothers... n my aunty entertain them with nursery rhymes... ehheheh...

n now i'm totally tired.. finally got to smoke... but still can't sleep.... haiz... oh yah.. i seriously miss him... cant wait for him to come back.. jus hope he's fine there...